Day Dreaming About Her

She believes in love at first sight.

She dreams to marry a Scottish carpenter, who would play the violin every morning to wake her up from her slumber.

They will be raising two beautiful children, a boy and a girl, who would inherit her soft brown hair and her dark brown eyes, whereas possessing the height and fair skin of their father. 

They will be living in a pearl white hut with a dark blue roof.

There will be beds of bright sunflowers, eggplants-purple tulips, and baby jasmines sprouting happily at their front yard. 

There will be a pure-white pavilion right in the centre of her backyard, all coiled up by the fragile yet determined morning glory.

The pavilion will be overlooking the cliffs and the ocean, where she will be sitting in most of the afternoons to work on her paintings. 

Yes, she dreams to be a painter. 

She believes that an immature relationship is where “I need you, therefore I love you”.

But a mature relationship is where “I love you, therefore I need you”.

The passion between them sparks at a spur of the moment.

But the love between them is cumulated and deepened by the experiences they have together. 

A Totally Uncensored Entry On A Lusterless Tuesday Afternoon

Disclaimer – Read with an open mind and only if you are up for an entertaining entry to lighten up your day / night. Please leave NOW if you are only reading in hope to start a judging / moral education session. And my grammar sucks, period. Deal with it. 

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you see…something happened over the weekend…and this is purely a sharing-a-thought-with-you kinda entry. So yeah. 

A guy whom I have chatted with briefly once or twice on watsapp before watsapped a photo of a girl to me over the weekend, in the middle of night – the photo is of a girl, the back view of a girl, the back view of a naked girl to be specific, where I could see half her face , her bare back, and her ass in full length.

I just looked and at the photo and did not respond, until about 4 mins later, he texted me asking if I am interested in girls.

‘I have never tried girls but I am open to possibilities if the opportunity is right’ 

‘What do you think of her?’

‘She is not my type’

(im a virgin when it comes to girls, so i got to be very very VERY discerning with my choice, especially if it is gonna be my FIRST, right???!!)

‘Oh?’ (he is either intrigued or displeased with my flat-out reply)

(no reply from me to that doubting oh)

‘Too bad then’

Naturally, the curious cat in me got the better of the sensible me in me, so I asked him why.

‘We have fucked for 4-5 times today….now we are looking for someone to join us…’

(what would you have replied if you were me???)

To cut the story short, I gave him an outright No. 

(yeah, there is no thanks from my side, what is there to thank for really?)

Why?

Simple.

1. I don’t trust him – I dont know him at all, except chatted briefly for a day or two.

2. I cannot trust two stupid people - The way he treated that girl whom he is fucking was very disrespectful. In my opinion, how could someone give a naked photo of one girl to another girl whom he hardly knows at all? Again, in my opinion, that is is just plain rude and stupid. Even if the girl whom he is fucking has consented for him to do that, she is just as stupid as he is, if not more.

3. She is honestly not my type – Putting aside whether this girl has an awesome personality or not, I am just not attracted to her physically (or at least judging from that photo I know I  am not) She is just too fucking skinny with no curves at all for my liking. No offence to those who dig skiiiiiiiiny girls, but honestly, how do people even find it physically attractive when there is just nothing to be attracted to (physically) in the first place? She is really just all bones and skin!!

I mean, sure, I bet she will look awesome when clothed. After all, everything (fashion wise) these days are meant for skinny to bones girls with no bums and hums to fit into a FREE SIZE (note: reads size ZERO to FOUR in reality!!!)

But once stark naked, I really truly honestly don't understand what else is there to feel excited about...and again, this is based purely on physical attraction and has nothing to do with her personality and all that.

The Eternal Struggle - What does my girlfriend mean when she says 'Never Mind'? / Why does my boyfriend not understand?

I am not sure if i want to re-live last night, but I would like to share what I have kind of figured out while I was sleeping, mainly digesting what I have observed from my long chat with missy daisy and mr. fish……

What did this Involve?

Woman (or the party who is more inclined to the feminine side in a relationship)

Her emotional struggle

Her insecurities

Her trying to communicate it

With her beloved.

What Is The Issue At Hand?

This is a simple equation 

That exists looong before time

Woman feels insecure

about something

Woman tells man about it

Man thinks that the something which is making woman insecure is irrelevant

Hence brushes it aside (worse, thinking that she is pms-ing and it is only a moment of irrationality, which will pass within a few days….*honestly, this is the WORST kind of explanation a man could possibly EVER come up with in his head, whether he communicates it verbally or not!*)

Then the insecurity brews and grows quietly but surely in her

Till finally

it erupts

All because of a small matter that nags and takes advantage of her insecurities

What Could Have Been A Possible Solution?

If only

man could

attend and nip the issue at the butt

first by acknowledging that whatever issue the woman is facing

is of importance, at least to her, to her world, to her perspective.

THEN he should

out of the love and concern he has for her

attend to the something / issue that is bothering her immediate

no matter how insignificant the issue might be in his book

before it snowballs into an irrational brawl

Why?

 

because by then, when it reaches the irrational brawl,  the woman will hate herself

for turning into this horrible nasty slimy creature

then, she will get angry at the man

who would have this question mark in his head “what have I done??”

then he would ask her “What do you want me to do to make you happy?”

that sentence will escalate the issue to a whole new level

because, she will feel that you have just given her a tight slap in her face (well, it would actually feel 

better if it was an ACTUAL slap in this case, not that any woman would want it)

because this question, which is a genuine question from the man’s part, will be translated to

“I give up, now just tell me quickly what I need to do, I will do it, and then we just quickly get over this so that I can go on to do the things I like than to deal with you this maddening woman” 

 

OR

“Ok, whatever, I will do as she tells me, I don’t really want to spend time THINKING about what she wants, just give me the quick fixes…”

Yes, the man might rebuke that this is not true, not what his intention is

But

 

This is exactly what is appearing to her, what his question is IMPLYING to her

And then she will say the forever mystical two words that puzzles man to no end

“Never mind….” Or “Forget it….”

What Happens Next?

 

Finally

Things seem to have calmed down and water seems to have run under the bridge

But

The truth it

It is not

It is still brewing

And growing

Albeit quietly 

But surely

In her heart

and the next time

when it erupts again

the man better be thoroughly well-prepared to take the accummulated aftermaths

or……

Water & Love

Love is like water that you hold it in a clear glass

If you wanna have some excitement with it

How about decorating the glass instead of adding flavours to the water?

You can shine colourful lights on it!

Paint plenty of pokka dots on the outside of the glass!

Because changes to the glass could be undone

As long as the water stays pure

Nothing else should matter

But when flavours are added to the mix, and the mix is bad, 

There is no turning back.